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Mom made her transition from the planet earth to the Kingdom of Heaven one month ago…March 17, 2016.  It seems like only yesterday.  I still remember arriving in California to rush to her bedside and see her again after being separated from her for one year and ten months…May 7, 2014, until March 13, 2016.

Mom and I had never been more than a phone call away, all of my life…

Mom and I were always together, or a phone call away…What separated us was a family who neither one of us knew or ever imagined…The love of money transforms people into creatures you would never dream of ever crossing your path. They took the eighth commandment and violated it in every way imaginable…in ways that only the Devil himself could conjure into being! In the process, disrespecting and violating a mother’s wishes, and separating her from the daughter she knew she could depend on to carry out her wishes for a peaceful life in her final years.

God granted my prayer…I asked to see my mother one more time before either she or myself left this world for the next…I prayed that he would release her from her pain and torment, and wrap His loving arms about her, and take her home.

I spent three days by her bedside.  When I arrived on the night of March 14th, she was in her room alone and she was slipping in and out of consciousness.  I leaned over her and kissed her forehead.  I took her hand and kissed it several times…then I whispered in her ear… “Mom, its me…its Charlene.” She opened her eyes immediately.  She could not speak because of the tubes…she closed her eyes, and I whispered again in her ear…”I’m here to take you home.”

I thanked her for being my mother…for teaching me so many things about life that I may not have discovered on my own…for loving me…and letting me love her.  I told her not to worry about me, because I would be fine…I told her that so many people who had gone before her, were waiting to welcome her…to give her more love than she could ever imagine! That God, Himself, was waiting to welcome His daughter back home…

It saddened me that those who she was leaving behind…whom called themselves sons and daughters and sisters and brothers…aunts and uncles…nieces and nephews…were being just that, left behind…because they chose a path contrary to the Truth…the Light…and the Way…The children that she loved, coveted her life in a way that they still choose to defend in darkness….

I know that for me, I was blessed to have the best of Mom in life…and in her passing…and one day when my time is done…I will see Mom again…Until then, I hold her in my heart…and rejoice…knowing, that she is home again.  Every Saint Patrick’s Day will be extra special…The luckiest day of the year paved Mom’s entrance into Heaven!

Lisa, Brenda and Deidre…

What you all have done and continue to do is not what Mom or Grandma, or our family is all about… Nor would they condone what you have done and are conditioning people and family around you to accept as truth… Cousin Mignon Jiles has bought into your masterful lies… hook, line and sinker…to the point of condemnation and participation…so sad for one who says that she is a “Child of God.”

You all need to stop with these fabrications or you will cause irreparable damage to yourselves and your children.  My niece and nephew came to me with troubled hearts, seeking solace in finding out answers. Is this what you really want?!

This was never about any of you. It was always about Mom and what she wanted and honoring her wishes.  Your unfounded imaginings took away Mom’s desired life, her wishes and the hard earned money that was going to buy her a new home…pay off all of her debts…and give her peace and comfort in her remaining years…

When she was living here in New England, I asked her if she would ever be happy…

“No, she said…because the children I love won’t let me live my life in peace.”

You all certainly proved her right with your never ending persecutions of her…Who would call the police on their mother for not wanting to stay overnight with them? Who would file an erroneous conservatorship petition against a mother’s competency, in a bid to have control over her mother, knowing her mother did not want her to be her caregiver, let alone, her conservator? Who would take a mother away from her chosen caregiver, stating that “I would rather see my mother dead, than for her to be with Charlene!”

Why, Lisa? Because she did not want to be with you? She made that plain and clear in documents and videos, that you still refuse to acknowledge….

Your delusions must cease, as I mentioned above, this is NOT our family’s way…to promote such darkness, lies and cruelty…

Grandma’s family has always been about love and kindness… What you are all doing is laying waste to their goodness…

God knows your hearts… What you are doing and what you have done is not honoring Mom or her family… She would not, and did not subscribe to this…

End it, and find yourselves before it is too late… Do it for your children. Find peace…

The truth is being revealed…it can no longer be contained….

Our loved ones leave behind spaces in the world that can never be filled.

But they also leave behind love and light in each of us,

sparks of joy and hope

that live in our hearts and give strength to our souls.

A sin of commission is a sin that one takes action to commit, whether in thought, word or deed…knowing…that it is wrong.

“What comes out of the mouth proceeds from the heart, and this defiles a person. For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false witness, slander.” (Matthew 15:18-19).

Brenda, I was crying for all the wrong that you, Deidre and especially Lisa, did to Mom… and continued to do… you could not respect her enough in her transition from this life to the next, to stop with your inappropriate comments, actions and deeds, at her deathbed vigil. She heard every word…every falsity…every curse word…all your unfounded venom…at her bedside. Shajuan is definitely your daughter… evil is the result of bad actions stemming from a bad character. Evil is morally wrong, sinful and wicked.

Your hearts were seen that day of all days…by everyone…especially Mom. You all gave her an everlasting portrait of who you really are. The truth will continue to be revealed….

Those who live by the light, will always shine their light like a beacon…through the darkness…

Those who close their minds, hearts, and souls to light and embrace the darkness in spewing evil, cruelty and hate, have made a conscious choice in thought…word…and deed…your choices have been made very clear…you cannot serve two masters.

Sins of Commission continually committed, know only one path….

Mom passed away on Saint Patrick’s Day…March 17, 2016, at 11:50 am.  My heart was joyful because a prayer had been answered…a prayer to deliver her from her pain, suffering and torment had been mercifully answered.  I will love and miss my mother forever.  I prayed for the ability to tell her so, and God most mercifully granted that part of my prayer as well.

Believe this, all those who are still not convinced…God is very much in the here and now, and is watching while debts, sins and transgressions are being committed and adding up at a gargantuan pace.  The only person you are fooling, is yoursef if you choose to use your free will to sow massive seeds of destruction in continuously breaking spiritual laws as if they do not apply to you…

Free will is operating on this planet.  We cannot blame God for what we set into motion.  All that we are experiencing, and all that we are witnessing, is being committed by our own…people…friends…lovers…spouses…sisters…brothers…mothers…fathers…everyone.

Jesus said that he had come to bear witness to the truth…and the truth is “that there is none good but the Father.” I watched and witnessed as my mother was betrayed and persecuted by her children…I watched as the words of Jesus became a sobering reality. I understood, finally.

God knows our hearts…we may try and cover up the truth of our actions from others, but we cannot hide from God…and God is always here…always listening…always waiting…knowing all…

An answer came on Saint Patrick’s Day and reaffirmed my belief in things unseen….

The end of the road has arrived for another year…The final day of 2015. How fast this year has come and is now hours from being over.

When I woke up this morning I realized just how much time has “gone by” in my life… This year had been a difficult one, perhaps that is why it was obliged to fly by so quickly.  God is merciful in so many ways!

The difficulty that culminated in 2013 with a family and a system of justice gone bad, caught up with me this year in bouts of depression, anger and helplessness…things I wanted and meant to do to reach out in correcting the wrongs that were effected against the person most egregiously victimized, fell to the wayside once again.

Life has a way of just happening around you, and the best laid plans of mice and men disappear in the ethers, and a new year is suddenly upon us!

The last 12 months have left its mark on nearly everyone in ways we could or may not have imagined…we are confronted with the final countdown, and expected to pull it all together for the beginning of a New Year, 2016.

Are you ready? Speaking for myself, I don’t know….I want to start the New Year with a clean slate, but so much is still left unresolved…if you walk away from the collateral damage, it will only resurface in the New Year.

Really, there is no such thing as “forgive and forget.” It just tags along, nipping at your heels until it is addressed and resolved…I guess it takes another year to do that.  The realization I have made is that we carry it all with us, sometimes blindly, sometimes with much conscious awareness…because it is all woven into our fabric and our journey through this life…until our time comes to lay down the burden and meet our Maker…

So, we are on the precipice of another New Year…will it fly by like the last? I’m sure it will…and the way we will make it through is to remember this…just be true to yourself, in whatever you do…live the best life possible…ease your burden when and where you can…love everything and everyone without inflicting harm to yourself or the recipients of your love…and work hard at leaving the world a better place for those who will follow…

Our tapestry is continuous and time is just a perception…The end is only the beginning…again.

I wish I could be a better person…I really try, but some days I just don’t make it. Some days, it just feels better to be in that moment of “freeze”… Neither here, nor there…just frozen in time, space and emotion.

It is devastating being an empath in a predominantly hateful world.  So many people who know in their hearts that they are committing evil, try to pass it off as good…I have an ex-family of those, and I will share their names…Lisa Boatwright, Deidre Bangs, Brenda Blake, Gregory Bangs, Brett Boatwright, his wife, and their issue, Shayne Berry, Tecoy Berry, Shajuan Blake, Ojwan Jiles, James Jiles, Mignon Jiles, and all those who stood by and did nothing while they committed their mentally dysfunctional deeds under the guise of “caring” about a mother, aunt, sister and grandmother, when they could care less about her… they took away her life, never came to see her, call her, or cared about what SHE WANTED…they only cared about what they could get, take and covet from her as their own! God, what the Devil has conceived in all of you!

I was banished from mom’s life because I loved and protected her…protected her at her request, from a “family” of dark, spiritually bankrupt and corrupt individuals, calling themselves, “family.” None of you know the meaning of “family.” And none of you ever will.

I have been silent about you all…not anymore! I will dedicate the rest of my days letting the world know about the sociopathic horrors that you all have committed against mom, Gerlene Bangs, and others, because any one who knows any of you, or ever will come to know you, must REALLY know you!!!

Knowing what you all have done, and how you try to pass yourselves off to the world as the “injured” parties, is just too much to bear…knowing the truth.  The truth will no longer be contained…

I am tormented day in and day out by the deliberate suffering mom endured, by Lisa’s fraud to the court to become a “conservator” over a mother whom she despised because she “repeated” a few things in a conversation to her…everyone does that, even you, Lisa! But then, you are “special.” You deny everything, even my nephew’s deafness…if you had gotten him the help he needed when he was a small child, he would have been better equipped to handle his fate, through his growing years, and may not have contemplated suicide, to get away from the likes of you!

Thank God, he confessed it to his cousin, and to me, otherwise he would not be here today.

You tormented mom so badly, that she asked me if I had a gun, when you came to New Hampshire with your lies and your fraudulently obtained court papers of conservatorship from California. With the aid of Ralph Palmieri, calling the Judge in New Hampshire to set up a mock “hearing” in a court of improper jurisdiction, when it was to obtain a permanent restraining order against you!

I asked mom why I needed a gun, and she replied, “To shoot Lisa…if you can’t shoot her, give me the gun, and I will shoot her!” I said, “Mom, she’s your daughter!” And Mom said, “I don’t care, it’s the only way she will stop!” I went into the bathroom and cried.

We were in a hotel in Massachusetts, because mom did not want to go home to our apartment, for fear that Lisa would show up there and take her back to California against her will…which is what eventually happened, due to the officious intermeddling of Barbara McPhee, Elliot Senior Health Center “Social” Worker, in Manchester, New Hampshire and Barbara Trahan, “Social” Worker Ridgewood Center in Bedford, New Hampshire, Chief of Police, John J. Bryfonski, and Patrolman Amy M. Champagne, Bedford Police Department.  Patrolman Amy M. Champagne interfered in a civil matter, along with Police Chief Bryfonski by honoring paperwork outside of New Hampshire’s jurisdiction.  There are laws that protect residents subjected to Foreign Conservatorships which they had no knowledge of, and had they not interfered Gerlene’s rights and wishes would have been protected. A gun and a badge give free passage to the breaking of laws…along with threats of arrest.

The social workers and the police officers entered into realms outside of their function and caused further damage to a situation which they knew nothing about.  Lisa continued to twists truths and realities to gain control and “possession” over her mother… To be continued….

Somehow, Christmas didn’t seem like Christmas this year…So much has happened to take away the joy of a momentous occasion. The birth of our Savior was just another day…

It was just another day because so much of humankind has forgotten the reason for the Savior’s birth…so many have chosen to follow that which is fleeting, and that which holds no salvation to the human spirit. We have adapted into the ways of the world…we were cautioned not to be of this world…just to be in it.  We were to protect what is good and just…to uphold and support the truth at all costs…and we have fallen once again…and fail to uphold the laws which cement heaven…earth…and all that is outside of our scope of understanding.

We were charged to love one another…and someway, somehow, self -interests outweighed the supreme call of unconditional connectivity…clearing the way to be inhumane and unrelenting in destroying all that is good in the human heart…

What comes to mind when you think of “Christmas?”

What does it mean to you? Have you passed on the miracle of the gift of Christmas at all, with even the gift of a smile?

Christmas isn’t about the receiving of gifts….it’s about giving of yourself to light up the life or lives of others…with love…love that is given in the spirit of love…as He was born to give you the Truth…The Light…The Way….

He cries, and the Angels wail…because we have forgotten His purpose and His sacrifice…and our legacy of love….

Forgive us, Father…for we know not what we do…and have done.

A Christmas afterthought.

Today is Thanksgiving…November 26, 2015…Can we be thankful this day? As we look back over the last eleven months, culminating with this day, let us recount…remember…and relive moments of thanksgiving….

Source: To Bear Witness …

Happy Birthday, Mom!

It was a trip down Memory Lane…It was remembering all the times and moments that make up a lifetime. I wonder what drives people to form the bonds of family…and what keeps those bonds from fading…Memories…Birthdays…Moms…You are 83 years of wisdom…courage…perseverance…happiness…encouragement…and love.

God bless you, Mom.  May He forever keep you in His protection, love and light…and may you always know that you are in my heart…and you are my heart…whatever I am…you taught me to be…I am your hope…I am your chance…I am your child.

Thank you, Mom…Happy Birthday! I love you and celebrate…YOU!!!